get up.

At work the other day i got in trouble, because at the bottom of our bills it says "tell us how we did!" and you fill out this lameee survey online, and this person filled it out on me. However, this customer apparently didn't like me.. at all.. and my boss called me into her office expressing concerns about my "attitude" at work, and my lack of "care". This customer said i gave them attitude, and i turned them off the idea of ever eating at the restaurant again. I kind of laughed because i don't really give attitude to people i don't know. Whatever. I worked that shift completley devastated and not attitude-ish. You see this summer has been some of the hardest four months in my life. I work two jobs and every day it's a struggle to get up and get on my feet, especially when your shifts are 9am to 10pm. There's no one around to tell me how proud of me they are, my parents are acorss the country, and i never get any verbal affirmation and that's what i need. The only feed back i get is from some customer who filled out an awful (yet probably honest) report on me. I almost quit that day... but instead i just walked around feeling extremly sorry for myself.
But then i realized just how pathetic i was being. Dear self, get the HELL UP and stop with the pity parties. I realize that there are two types of people in life: people that make life happen, and people that let life happen to them. I can't say for sure which one is better, but once in a while you have to take action and make things happen. There are those who sit around and list off reasons why their life sucks, and then there are those who take action and are able to right the wrongs. Or at least, find redemption. There is freedom, there is beauty, there is life!, beyond these pathetic pit falls of life. Where does it all begin? We're always looking so inward when really we should be looking outward. When you start to notice the other six billion people that live around you, your problems tend to start to look very insignificant.

"I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me." "They will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?' "He will [replied], 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'-matthew 25.