take it ALL.

I sat there and wanted to plead with God for my life. I always used to pull the whole "God do it my way, and i promise, you can have my future." But it didnt take long to realize asking him for my way was not surrendering my future. It was taking a strong grip on it away from his plans. I sat there and said that no matter the outcome of what laid before me, my future was his. If it turned out okay, it was only by his will, and i would make a conscious effort to live my life differently becuase of the grace i'd been granted. If it turned out not okay, then that was his plan, and the only way to live my life would be within his plan, becuase i tried once making it on my own and look where it took me. It was as simple as that. It came down to all or nothing, and i was so sick of chosing luke warm. it has to be all from now on.

I worry my inspiration left when you did. I have not much to write about anymore.