october air.

It was around this time last year. I remember the phone call and the email, the anticipation and everything you told her to tell me. I remember the feeling, words can't explain how my heart lept, and how i had a permanent smile for days. The cold weather reminds me of you, the rain and the gusting wind, the leaves that cloud the ground, everything i felt that day...

But today is a new day. And today it's raining and the wind gets mixed in with the leaves and i can hardly tell what is ground and what is air as i walk across the street. And today i hardly remember what if felt like last year. I was so young and naive. I no longer believe in words like the ones you had for me. I don't believe in most of that stuff, not because of you, but because it's easier not to. It's easier to live with your heart in your own body not in someone else's.