Please take my life and use it

I always get somewhat tired of hearing so many people talk about the poor. Like when you can't finish your dinner, and your parents make you eat it anyway because "there are starving children in Africa.." So what, it's not like my food goes to them anyway. Regardless of if i finish my dinner or not, those poor children will still starve! So many people talk about these starving people but i also felt like they over dramatized it.

However, for my class in global studies i read this.
-over consumers = 20 % of world's population that consume 80% of world's resources
-marginals, 20% of pop live in absolute deprivation
-20% of ppl who live in richest countries get 82.7% of worlds income
-poorest 20% get 1.4% of total income
-gap btw rich and poor doubled since 1950

I have never been so disgusted with my country. We hoard wealth needlessly. I started to think more and more about this, and it is too painfully true. I go shopping with my friends every week. We throw out so much food everyday. Money is so disposable for us. We have our ipods, iphones, blackberries, laptops, expensive perfume, the list is ENDLESS. And it's all so un necessary!

What's even worse is that we live among some of the poorest people. Right in our city are hundreds of homeless that are constantly ignored by most university students. Really, how can a whole population be SO terribly blind to the poverty within their own community? This blindness is horrific... we are young, we are the future, we HAVE the power to change this. If only we could see.

So open your eyes. There are needy everywhere. If we are truely global citizens then it is our job to help out these people, regardless of where they live. They are you neighbors. What kind of a heart less nation can live in riches and watch their neighbor starve. It's just not right.

freeeeeeee.

Today i decided to never let fear hold me back. I want to travel the world. I can't reach my full potential in this city. I want to go far. Here goes everything..

"Where ever you say, help me go, i'll go,
where ever you say ...
i'll go."

right now.

" I will take a step back, and i'll let you ahead
I will take a step back and see if you come back "

it's not that easy.

on my own.

Dear Self ... you keep forgetting that this is not really who you are. You get so caught up in everything and lose your mind over the stupidist things. Please remember who you are. The kind of girl who not afraid of new things. The kind of girl who knows what she wants and goes after it. The kind of girl who has never been conventional .. the kind that wants to be so ghetto but wears dresses all the time. The kind of girl who lives simply and delights in the smallest things. The kind of girl that brings joy and loves easily. The kind that seeks adventure and is not satisfied with less that you deserve. The kind of girl who hopes. Never lose sight of that. You have everything you need right there with you. Just pick it up and live.

Free.

Yesterday i thought my life was going to end, i was ready to lock myself in a room and forget it all. Funny it turned out the opposite way. Yesterday i found faith. Yesterday i experienced hope in un imaginable ways. Yesterday i found peace back in my life. I am free. And i'm so confident in this.

Also, i don't think this is the end for us. This is just the very beginning of it all. I think we are on the verge of something amazing. I suddenly don't even care how long it takes ... I just know it.
And i know when it finds us it will be right.

I couldn't be more excited.

lights

I was walking home tonight, and as i got to an empty part of campus i couldn't help but notice the stars, and how bright they stood in the night sky. I wonder if the stars are as bright in your part of the country, or if they glow as bright as they once did over the lake where we used to skinny dip. I wonder if you even see the same constellations and star patterns that i see here. Probably not.

I wish more than a lot of things that you could be here with me, under these stars. I mean it's not like i need you or anything, i can get by on my own perfectly fine. But there's just something about what you bring into my life ...unspeakable joy, that makes it that much better.

you make the darkness dissappear,
i feel found when you stand near,
i know where i am when you are here,
my way becomes so clear.