feel like i could start to understand your grace

Reality has got to be the killer of love.

Honestly, it destroys even the greatest love stories.

It's awful, this reality thing.

It never lets anything work out.

Yet i know that Love and reality can co exist

becuase i see people happily married in love.

Maybe reality has a favoured few...

"... the choice of love and life is wrong; not because coldness and death are right, but because the true opposites of love are reality and truth. ..Reality is the highest human value-higher than love, higher than happiness, and that not to accept honour that high of value is to be less than human" -Samuel Hynes

You tell me to live,

Do i regret this path that i chose for myself ? No,
But i am tempted to when i think about my freinds who have life paths other than university. Those who traveled, took a year off, signed up for outdoor trips and what not. I spend my days studying, while others climb mountains. I ask you, Where is the adventure in that !

" When I'm Lost and It Seems The End
Like There's Only Certain Death
You Tell Me To Live "

uh

midterms are the most stressful things in the world,
they are a thousand times worse than highschool exams,
AND, it is impossible for one to sleep while expereincing such stress

fall term drop out for sure.
i cant wait for this to be over !

photographs and memories

you're such a big part of my life,
i wouldn't even know where to start to let go ,
to let you go would be such an awful process ..

i hang on every word you say,

Hey self, get up.

just get up.

turn on the radio,

sing way to loud,

dance around your room.

leave it all behind,

you'll never live those days again.

the only that's important is what lies ahead,

so open those green eyes,

there is a day waiting for you,

let your light shine,

don't be afraid, don't second guess yourself

don't worry what people will say

just live, just love,

you are loved.

so what else do you need ?

wake up.

bleh

i want to wake up every morning

and see the potential that each new day holds.

it's so bleak here.